Really EXHAUSTED!!!!

Tonight we have a Chicken meeting which need to discuss about our design, such as, concept, direction, theme, etc.

Somehow, we just can go a little step for our first stage and we are behind our schedule right now.

When I talk to my tutor tonight, he told me indirectly that I may be the lowest mark of our own team for my final project's presentation. This news is really make me feel sad. I really wanna study abroad. If the result finally have just pass, then I think it will affect me to apply the scholarships for my further studies, sigh.....

These days, I'm just wondering am I suitable to study architecture? Always asking myself and asking GOD on this matters. On the other hand, I will feel that... may be I'm on the right track of GOD's plan. He let me to finish my professional diploma, and then get into this top-up degree course. Recently, I can join the architectural design competition with my tutor and some classmates. If that's not in my heavenly father's hand, how can I have this wonderful chance to get into this competition?? I will told myself, I need to have more faith in GOD. Also, need to always praise GOD that I want to do HIS's WILL rather than mine. I really want to be a servant to serve HIM. But really struggle inside my mind.

Heavenly FATHER, if anything in my mind that not your message to me, please take away from me, also protect me to against the devil and all the bad things. Guide me to be a godly one and lead me to the right place. If study abroad is not in your plans, I will humble myself to obey you and follow your way.

After the submission of my final project, I'm really EXHAUSTED. Seems lost all of my energy and creative mind. Please reinstall me and purify my mind.

Praise LORD.

p.s. when I'm walking back to home last night, I just have a funny question want to ask god. Is that your morning time is my morning time and your night is my night?? Are our time zone are the same?? I want to know you more and talk to you more. AMEN!