I love, I cry, I can't sleep..

I can't sleep... I dunno why..
am I really dunno the reason? No, I know the reason. Tonight we did talk a lot in different categories.. (keep changing the topic). However, when I heard.. something like.. "you are mature enough to take up the responsibilities to whatever you've done." I feel sad >.< because of this.. I don't really like this meaning..

When I was younger, I used to be naughty, always hang-out with friends till early morning. One night, when I arrived home.. my parents were waiting for me at the living room, they wanna have discussion with me, regarding on why I will be home so late (the 4th week since I came home late), and whom am I going out with. However, they keep saying the I have to bare the risk for whatever I've been doing and I have to take up all the responsibilities to myself. I hate this kind of conversation. I know what I've been doing, why don't you trust me that I am not going to something wrong.. I started crying when they said that... same as tonight, when I heard the similar conversation again.. I feel like you don't trust me.. or I should say, you wanna trust me, however, I'm not doing good enough.. to give you the safty feeling

I'm starting to have frustration in this relationship, I never think of the difficulties are going to happen in this situations.. What should I do? You dunno me, and I dunno you.. actually we are stranger... why we have to start this relationship?? Why we are so far away, I keep lifting up our relationship to our father in heaven. This is the only thing that I can do. Every morning I have to tell myself to change my prespective that this relationship is gonna work.

I really dunno what to do, am I just thinking too much? Tears keep dropping from my eyes, Father GOD, help me please, I cry out for help, my LORD..